HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GUORONG!!! haha... went kbox and sing... obviously i am trying to get to holiday mood already... lol...

Came back about 2.30pm and studied a little bit of NDI case study... have to prepare for tml's phase test... stress sia... heard from other class they say very difficult.. anyway.. i will try my best tml!..

Went to Alexandra Hospital to visit my Aunt... she looked for frail and skinny... when asked questions... the reply will be always in a disappointing tone... So as seems like she is giving up all hope in life... haiz.. tried to make her happy as much as we could... i guess it takes time...

i had seen two kinds of pain there.... emotional and physical..

Emotional- the earning of wanting to break free but had no strength to do that... my aunt hands were tied to the side of the bed... we asked why... but they said it is to prevent her from moving out of the bed.. what if she met a accident?

Physical- Seeing so many needle scars and especially the scar around her waist... the painful one is there... where the doctor had to take a 6cm long needle and poke right through to her hip bone and extract samples of bone marrow... it is still hurting that even a slightest movement can cause much pain...

i suddenly felt so sad.. and thought of what if i am also suffering fom depression... maybe i try to make life happier.. be more optimistic...

really hope that she will be out soon.. cuz to me... she's not my aunt... she is more like another mother to me...